hello all! i know it has been some time since I have posted a blog, but I have been having many, many good things happening! I am back in college which is the one of the center functions of my life! I have been dealing with work, school, and managing money, but at 24, i finally feel as though I know what direction I am supposed to be going in. It feels great....especially when I know I have the hand of God is on me! I am more motivated and determined in my Adult life then I have been before. I am here right now, on campus, because I am sitting in a building that will hold my class for social work @ 11am...its only 9:44am right now...anyway, i digress....I have on a pair of deep blue scrubs, matching and no sleeves....my arms are speckled and I have mostly vitligo has taken all of my pigment,,, can you guess my next comment? All eyes are on me! Instead of feeling fear, I feel proud! I also feel sorry for the mass of people who try and stigmatize me....and don't even know me. That feeling i have is actually turinging into a motivating factor for me. I have something to prove to myself and everyone else can kick rocks. I sometimes get the sense that some people feel, I should hide..as if I have the audicity to conduct myself like them.."normal"..lmfao! I am so sick of that connotation--all i can do right now is laugh at the thought of it!..you guys I have been thinking lately about going get some shirts made that have different comments, postive and yea some sarcastic (lol) to combat the different stares i get from people. I am not trying to copyright a trend or anything, but i am yearning to do something for me..because my confidence level is much higher now....and I am trying to work on awareness for the mass society who is ignorant of this disorder or deivant torward us. anyway, i just wanted to post on here while i am sitting in the hall waiting on my class to start and having all eyes on me!....pssst can i tell you a secert?..i think I can of like it...:):)
Oh....i hope everyone is getting the courage to go everday and do something you never did....
feel free to comment
----ms. cookie
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be yourself, and try not to be too hard on yourself.
But now that it's summer and I'm undergoing depigmentation, you'd have to be blind to miss me!
For a couple of weeks, I was feeling self conscious about my vit again for the first time in 15 years. But I caught myself today checking out the back/outer side of my right forearm in the mirror and going, "Hell yeah!!!"
Yeah. I was excited to see three new patches, plus existing ones spreading. Operation Make Me Glow In The Dark is underway!
And as for anyone staring, I could only tell myself this: Nothing will hear as good as my depigmentation feels. It's just words and stares. I'm *FINALLY* doing something I've been wanting to do for years. If it makes people stare, screw 'em. If they had the chance to do something they'd always dreamt of, even if it meant being awkward for a brief period, they'd do it in a heartbeat, too!
i plan to when i cant hide my anymore and it's pretty obvious. good luck.
i post any thing of interest i find about vit on my FB pages, try to inform all my friends at least.
Hats off to you, girl! When I was reading your blog I was so happy that everything you wrote was in the positive and that there was no self pity. You are a strong woman, embrace yourself. I'm sure there are many people on this site that wished they had the same confidence level as you..count me as one of them. We, in general, really have to stop putting ourselves down and just live life. And you're right, Courtney, we need to educate the public about vitiligo, this way, society will be a more comfortable place for us. Oh...and I love the t-shirt idea. Thanks for your blog and Good luck with school!
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